Jess, I am so sorry this happened to you. Thank you for sharing your story I am a recent counseling graduate and hearing your story may help me identify victims who are unable to voice what has happened. I hope you have found a good therapist and I second the recommendation for EMDR. I will pray that you are able to find peace and joy in life. Your strength in sharing your story tells me you are resilient. I hope that you are able to find a path toward a relationship with Shannon. Take care.